I shot these images last spring. It was on one of those rolls of film that I forgot to bring into the lab. I have mixed emotions about posting it. These images were not of the kind that you can't wait to get back from the lab. I wasn't expectant. And maybe I don't always need to be expectant. It seems like I often get caught up in my mind telling me that "every image has to be a winner!"
And this starts me thinking about the role of showing and sharing my work. A large part of me is dying for acceptance and it seems like there are many times when I am courting approval of my images. I really want people to say "wow!" or "nice job" or whatever. I really want to have my images accepted into shows. And the scary thing here is that in courting approval I am putting a large amount of power in the hands of an audience.
I need to realize that right now my images are not about the subject matter. My images are not being made with showing in mind or receiving accolades. Right now my images are about a journey I'm on. My images are about process. The process is about being in the present moment and noticing what I am noticing and then photographing what I am noticing. It is a simple journey that really at this point has no place for an audience. I think that may be a different journey altogether.
